[locked from Rory]

[sandandwater]

I know I'm being childish here but I can't help it.

I've been wandering around Alessandro's empty house all morning. He wanted me to go with him to Mass but I just can't do that. It makes me feel even smaller than I already do to sit in an nearly ancient Cathedral and listen to some wizened old relic carry on in a language I barely speak (Latin) about damnation and guilt, knowing I have more than my fair share of what the Catholic Church would consider sin on my soul.

That's not really what I am being childish about though, cowardly maybe but not childish.

No, it's Ro.

He didn't ask me to stay. Didn't ask me not to go. He didn't come after me to ask me to come back to New York either.

It's not that I left just so he would chase me. It's not that at all. I don't know what I would have done had he asked me to stay or had he shown up here asking me to return.

I'm not making much sense.

I do keep wondering if part of him is glad that I'm gone. I'm so scared that he is.

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[sand-andwater.livejournal.com]

Peter...right. Well, I can venture a guess as to what her issues with him are, and I'm not so sure I'd be quick to call her crazy.

I miss Rory too.

Tell me about something else, what's going on in your life? Are you still seeing that guy? Double-date...his name slips my mind.

[breaker-street.livejournal.com]

Well, her timing sucked then. All he was doing when she pitched her hissy was dancing with me.

Randy? Nooooo way hon. I am blissfully unattached at the moment, she said with an ironic eyeroll.

[sand-andwater.livejournal.com]

So you aren't all that thrilled with being unattached, I take it.

To be quite honest, you can do much better than Randy. He was nice enough, I suppose but somewhat dull.

[breaker-street.livejournal.com]

Not too thrilled although ... I try not to stress about it, you know? It's practically a cliche, the twentysomething girl freaking out because she doesn't have a boyfriend. I don't want that to be me.

Dull and so convinced he was right about everything. I just couldn't take him seriously after a while.

[sand-andwater.livejournal.com]

Before you know it, you'll have to beat guys off with a stick. Or make Dave do that for you.

And now you know why I didn't date anyone for close to six years before I met Ro.