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I'm only going to reference this once.

I left New York. I ended my relationship with Rory for reasons known quite well to him. I need space and time to sort some things out and I can't do that while being in a relationship with someone.

So yes, I'm the 'bad guy' here. How dare I need to put myself first for a while? I'm not going to discuss the particulars, it's not anyone's business other than my own, but does anyone honestly believe I'd leave the man I love without good reason?

Just because I made the decision to leave doesn't mean I'm not hurting too.

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...Sounds like some people need to mind their own damn business.

I'm sorry to hear that, sweetheart.

Thank you, Bee.

I suppose I don't have the right to be angry at Rory but the fact that he had to have his father make a public statement that I "left recently to sort [my] life out and doesn't look to be returning any time soon"...

Well, that hurts. A lot.

That isn't fair to you at all.

He's deleted it now, I suppose he wasn't thinking that it would upset me.

Sometimes people don't think things through like they should.

And sometimes, even when they do, no one believes that they did.

That's true as well.

Pippa ... I apologize if this seems like butting in, but I'm saying it anyway because it needs saying. What you do with it after is up to you.

Rory didn't do what he did out of anger, or to paint you as the bad guy or because he thought you aren't hurting. All that was on his mind was how he'd feel if he said nothing, and the two of you won.

Maybe that's insufficient reason. But there was no malicious or hurtful intent behind it.

Funny how you can tell me this or your father can share with the world that your brother and I are not together--on his behalf. Did Rory somehow lose the ability to communicate with people? Or is he going to chastise me (again) for daring to say something to you for leaving a comment here?

What you, he and possibly your father aren't seeing is that it would have bothered me far less had it come from Rory himself instead of a third party. As this is.

Or is this just how you do things? Should I have had Mike tell Rory I was going back to Venice?

I'm not speaking on Rory's behalf, Pippa. Or anyone's but my own.

I apologize for bothering you.

You aren't bothering me, Cait.

I apologize. Truly.

Not necessary, Pippa. I didn't mean to come across as protective little sister, I just ...

You're both hurting. You both need time.

I realize where loyalties will fall, Cait. It's alright. He's your brother and I know the two of you are close.

I never wanted to hurt him, Cait. Never. I'm sorry I have.

I'm not taking sides, I promise you that. I'm worried about both of you.

I know.

You don't have to worry about me. Take care of him though. Please.

Hey. Not that I have all that much experience, but as having been the guy... told to go, more or less, I wouldn't quite say it ends up involving a 'bad guy'. Some things just... end up certain ways.

ooc: Not that I have all that much time for tagging or any idea when I'll be back online, but.

I didn't tell him to go, I told him I'm going, but yes, I understand what you're saying, Dean. I just really felt like I was being shoved into an unfair situation and it upset me. I think it's been resolved now.

ooc: no problem. we'll be here when you do!

Well, no, I mean, that's what I do, leave, just that was different - it was... a this-ends-here. I'm glad it's been sorted out though. In case somebody needs personal attention over here, lemme know and Sam and I'll make a visitation. Bats, guns, just hulking 'round, whatever weapon of intimidation you need, we can help.

That's...sweet. I think. But no, I don't need anyone beat up or brutalized. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

Does it ever get easier?

Hey, I said intimidation, not violence! Y'know.

I... it's not my normal kind of thing. But I... it never went away. ~~And then she showed up, guns blazing, but that's another story...~~

Physical or psychological, it amounts to the same thing, Dean. Sometimes the latter is even worse.

I'm sorry. We don't have to discuss this.

Where are you and Sam headed now?

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