Lie awake all night wondering...

[sandandwater]

And then I'm in your arms I'll try to relax
Don't want to lie awake all night wondering where we're at
Oh this tossing and turning won't clear these blues away
When I am longing just to hear you say
'No Turning Back' - Sarah Blasko


Six months ago she walked out of his life, or tried to at any rate. Pippa couldn’t sever all ties with this man no matter how often she told herself it would be better, easier, safer. No, there were phone calls and letters, emails and now he was here with her in Venice. Here because she had asked him to come.

What was she doing?

Lying in his arms and pretending things were fine, acting as though there weren’t problems and issues to be settled and discussed. She was savoring the feel of his skin, hot and still damp with sweat, against hers. She was listening to him breath deep and even as he slept. Studying the lines and curves of his face, the delicate cheekbones and the wide, generous mouth—she could still taste his kisses when she swallowed involuntarily. Shifting, she stifled a groan as sore muscles protested, strained and aching from vigorous lovemaking. She sighed.

Pippa was not sleeping.

It would be morning soon and he would wake, she would have to find some way to either continue this charade (oh, the cowardice that taunted her) or face their relationship (lack thereof) head-on and the consequences of her actions. Would he want to discuss what happened? Could he find a way to forgive her? Should she forgive him? Did he realize that she still loved him? Too many questions and no easy answers no matter how hard she searched.

Keep trying.

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[fey-fire.livejournal.com]

He stroked the warm swell of her breast, molded it gently in his palm, teased her firming nipple with rapid flicks of his thumb. As he played with Pippa, he urged her around the corner of the unit, placing the flat side at her back instead of the loaded shelves. The maneuver also placed the piece of furniture between themselves and ... most of the frosted glass, but in truth Rory was thinking of Pippa's comfort rather than making any attempt at privacy.

After nibbling his way back up her throat, he urged her lips apart for another deep, heated kiss. His tongue caressed hers, savoring the sweet heat of her mouth while his fingers found and unfastened the clasp of her bra. With a soft growl of triumph, Rory slid both bra and top upwards, baring her soft mounds to his gaze, his hands, and to his very eager mouth. He cupped her in his hands, nipping and sucking at the upper swells of her breasts before sucking one taut nipple between his lips.

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Pippa was content to lean back and give in to what Rory was doing, gasping when the warm wet of his mouth was suddenly around her nipple and arching her back sharply in response. He knew how to tease and thrill, lead her further down the path of playfully bad behavior. "Ro...please."

Her hands rifled through his hair before moving on to mold his shoulders under her touch, eventually pushing the soft cotton of his shirt down the length of his arms to bare more of his skin. Her touch wandered from shoulder to back and over his neck, tugging long hair between her fingers. He was devouring her and she was frantic to touch as much of him as she could.

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In response to her urging hands, he slipped the shirt down his arms and off, dropping it to the floor. With both arms free, Rory let his hands wander his lover's body while his mouth sought out her other breast, releasing one nipple with a scrape of his teeth before seeking out the other.

He said nothing, but Pippa's soft plea did not go unanswered. One of Rory's hands smoothed down her stomach to find the fastening of her jeans. After slipping the button free and sliding the zipper down, he slid his fingers inside denim and panties to caress her sweet, already moistening heat.

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Her back arch and her hips bucked forward, against his hand and his probing fingers. It was so easy to give into this physical want and need, to feel something good and right with Rory--let their sexual chemistry wash away the harsh pain of the rest of their relationship.

Pippa whimpered at his touch, held his head to her breast and focused on the feel of his teeth and tongue against her hardened nipple. Right then, she felt as hot and fluid as the mass of red glass in the other room, as easily molded and shaped by Rory's hands and mouth as re Russo had been forged from her imagination.

We're not avoiding anything at all, Pippa convinced herself as her breath caught and her hand tightened in his hair. We're only making it right. At last.